pacer in a broken road

oh Belinda

2009-11-11T16:39:00.000-08:00

I try to call you for so many times, but you don't reply

I try to text you for so many times, but you still don't reply

Finally you pick up one of my calls, but your words are full of anger, and frustration.

I can not even think a word to say after your arrogant questionnaire.

I could not sleep all night,with a bit of anger, sadness and a bit of regression

I could not sleep in the previous nights while i was thinking of you, i miss you so much.

I could do anything for you , if life was not so hard while we met

I regret for all the wrong doing to you, while you were so Innocent to me.

I don't know when i can see you again ,even just for one sign.

I promised that I will take care of you after I get a stable life.

I promised that I will be with you while you are completing your degree.

I promised that I will always love you , if you were still available to be loved.

I promised our life would be just fine, when I am able to pay the bills by my own hands.

I will keep these promises in my heart, and full filled it in the near future.

please, don't give up, there is still a hope.

god bless you.

degree completion

2009-11-11T16:31:00.000-08:00

After the final semester fighting, the degree is finally completed.
I feel quite peaceful, not a bit of exiting at all, I am more worry about the other issues, the family issues, and how is Belinda doing in her study.
Anyway, has to keep going, a final battle for IELTS, again , do or die.

a week for battle

2009-08-17T16:38:00.000-07:00

this is the mid semester break, but got tonnes of work to do,, tax mid test, 308, presentation, mid test. IELTS...... do or die, got no choice.

Building cracking

2009-06-30T02:31:00.000-07:00

Recently there is new building lay down just after its construction completed, this building is just like a toy fall down by a kid. It is quite funny actually, pay respect for the construction company who design such a toy like building. But wait how about the other similar building around this one....consumer need to pay a special consideration to paying for such a risky toy home, lol .

Spirited Away

2009-06-27T02:27:00.000-07:00

Chihiro to the magical house

together

No face

Haku

Chihiro

Suddenly remember a very nice drama--spirited way. I am quite into that dramatic magical environment.

The three steps to financial reform

2009-06-27T01:17:00.000-07:00

this article is the opinion about the credit crisis and the current economic downturn from Soros

i think it is very insigtful

The three steps to financial reform
By: George Soros
The Obama administration is expected today to propose a reorganisation of the way we regulate financial markets. I am not an advocate of too much regulation. Having gone too far in deregulating - which contributed to the current crisis - we must resist the temptation to go too far in the opposite direction. While markets are imperfect, regulators are even more so. Not only are they human, they are also bureaucratic and subject to political influences, therefore regulations should be kept to a minimum.
Three principles should guide reform. First, since markets are bubble-prone, regulators must accept responsibility for preventing bubbles from growing too big. Alan Greenspan, the former chairman of the Federal Reserve, and others have expressly refused that responsibility. If markets cannot recognise bubbles, they argued, neither can regulators. They were right and yet the authorities must accept the assignment, even knowing that they are bound to be wrong. They will, however, have the benefit of feedback from the markets so they can and must continually re-calibrate to correct their mistakes.
Second, to control asset bubbles it is not enough to control the money supply; we must also control the availability of credit. This cannot be done with monetary tools alone - we must also use credit controls such as margin requirements and minimum capital requirements. Currently these tend to be fixed irrespective of the market's mood. Part of the authorities' job is to counteract these moods. Margin and minimum capital requirements should be adjusted to suit market conditions. Regulators should vary the loan-to-value ratio on commercial and residential mortgages for risk-weighting purposes to forestall real estate bubbles.
Third, we must reconceptualise the meaning of market risk. The efficient market hypothesis postulates that markets tend towards equilibrium and deviations occur in a random fashion; moreover, markets are supposed to function without any discontinuity in the sequence of prices. Under these conditions market risks can be equated with the risks affecting individual market participants. As long as they manage their risks properly, regulators ought to be happy.
But the efficient market hypothesis is unrealistic. Markets are subject to imbalances that individual participants may ignore if they think they can liquidate their positions. Regulators cannot ignore these imbalances. If too many participants are on the same side, positions cannot be liquidated without causing a discontinuity or, worse, a collapse. In that case the authorities may have to come to the rescue. That means that there is systemic risk in the market in addition to the risks most market participants perceived prior to the crisis.
The securitisation of mortgages added a new dimension of systemic risk. Financial engineers claimed they were reducing risks through geographic diversification: in fact they were increasing them by creating an agency problem. The agents were more interested in maximising fee income than in protecting the interests of bondholders. That is the verity that was ignored by regulators and market participants alike.
To avert a repetition, the agents must have "skin in the game" but the five per cent proposed by the administration is more symbolic than substantive. I would consider ten per cent as the minimum requirement. To allow for possible discontinuities in markets securities held by banks should carry a higher risk rating than they do under the Basel Accords. Banks should pay for the implicit guarantee they enjoy by using less leverage and accepting restrictions on how they invest depositors' money; they should not be allowed to speculate for their own account with other people's money.
It is probably impractical to separate investment banking from commercial banking as the US did with the Glass Steagull Act of 1933. But there has to be an internal firewall that separates proprietary trading from commercial banking. Proprietary trading ought to be financed out of a bank's own capital. If a bank is too big to fail, regulators must go even further to protect its capital from undue risk. They must regulate the compensation packages of proprietary traders so that risks and rewards are properly aligned. This may push proprietary trading out of banks into hedge funds. That is where it properly belongs. Hedge funds and other large investors must also be closely monitored to ensure that they do not build up dangerous imbalances.
Finally, I have strong views on the regulation of derivatives. The prevailing opinion is that they ought to be traded on regulated exchanges. That is not enough. The issuance and trading of derivatives ought to be as strictly regulated as stocks. Regulators ought to insist that derivatives be homogenous, standardised and transparent.
Custom made derivatives only serve to improve the profit margin of the financial engineers designing them. In fact, some derivatives ought not to be traded at all. I have in mind credit default swaps. Consider the recent bankruptcy of AbitibiBowater and thatof General Motors. In both cases, some bondholders owned CDS and stood to gain more by bankruptcy than by reorganisation. It is like buying life insurance on someone else's life and owning a licence to kill him. CDS are instruments of destruction that ought to be outlawed.

The writer is chairman of Soros Fund Management and author of The Crash of 2008

beauty

2009-06-26T17:27:00.001-07:00

PPMM-- Taco

Taily task

2009-06-25T19:17:00.000-07:00

today I need to read some practice about IELTS mainly in reading section. Since i have been lazy for almost 2 weeks, it needs to do some work now. still waiting for the results to come out, but it expect to be quite bad. Hopefully i can manage to do better next term without too much psychological suffering.

Peace.

Mr bean

2009-06-23T14:20:00.000-07:00

I like watching Mr bean episodes, it makes every laugh. Mr bean is so funny as a character. But by deeply observation, Mr bean isn't as happy as I thought. He is abnormal, which brings him loneliness, think about beside the show, if you met someone similar in the real life, will you try to get away from him/her. I guess high percentage of people will say 'yes' .

Mr bean is lonely , his best friend is Teddy, the toy bear. Mr bean treat Teddy like his best friend(introduce teddy to other people), sometime as his pet( the pet competition episode, if you can remember), some time as his toy(make fun of it), even as his tool(remember the painting episode?).

He knew himself abnormal, and he isn't satisfy with it. He always pretend that he is as usual as other people. But unfortunately he is impossible to cover the fact all the time, he is so tired for doing that, but he has to keep doing it, once he left the door of his property-his private space.

Every time, while he fail to do so, people will look at him in a strange sigh, he is nervous, scary at this condition, so he has to keep prevent himself.

Go Bean,go

goal for the upcoming portion of the jorney

2009-06-23T03:17:00.000-07:00

Training myself to be a qualified trader,IELTS,
complete the acc degree,
obtain the PR,
apply for intern,
searching and prepare for graduate school(finance, maths).
CPA, CFA level one, some maths qualify test, computer program(be an expert for MS office, especially excel macro, mat lab, C++) ,
permanent residence place.
looking for a relationship, and maintain it if there is any.
be close to god, strength my christian faith. inner peace.
go home to visit my family, be nice to them.
adjust my attitude, and be nice to the innocent people, and the one who close to me.
To be continued.....

keep praying

2009-06-23T02:46:00.000-07:00

keep the faith, but too much doubt, too much uncertainty, fail to indicate the direction which lead to frustration, loss, depressed, tear , sadness, keep falling, scary, scary, helpless, searching,
believing, keep walking with tear, stress, desperate, fall down, wake up , fall down, strength, weaken, depressed, failure, stand up, keep walking, failure, numb, keep walking. be faithful, missing, tear, numb, goal, carrying, carrying on, to be continued!

First post

2009-06-22T22:52:00.000-07:00

Life is a journey combining with both physical and emotional aspects. This blog will record both my physical and emotional journey at this stage of my life, hope this can be keep recorded continuously .